The Climatic Cosmic Week we celebrate Christ’s Passion

   I am reminded in my aching heart as I pray for my friends at Chaparral House and my relatives who are struggling with pains and disease that we all are going to die; from ashes to ashes.  The hard core of our pain it seems to me can be in accepting the inevitable which is slowly having to depend on others for our well being. It is through a predicament of life,  when ill or in our second half of life, mostly our last years of life that we are to let strange hands do our most menial familiar tasks for us. 

    Christ was always teaching others, healing others, loving others, and in the end of his life he was "taken, spoken to, accused, driven, dragged, spat upon, made to do that which was not his will."  He accepted, complied with the horrible tasks being done unto him, yet he continued in believing his Father was with him and there was a with a greater purpose for his soul; he was compliant in the face of his destiny.  He promised this for Peter as well as for his followers.  Well life itself has
a corruption about it that leads us to death in these bodies.  Yet we have the promise Jesus gave us that his Father is with us and there is a greater purpose for us as well; we will be with him in his Glorious Kingdom. For us today we might translate that to be his Unfathomable Richness of Being Together. 

    A recent meditation on the Apostle Peter who was told by Jesus he "would be taken where he did not want to go"  brought to mind the residents at Chaparral House that I know personally, along with all the myriads of women and men in an aged condition as well as ill children, who are most often restricted to a wheel chair, who need help getting in and out of bed, every menial mundane task has to be done for them, tasks that were so personal and private now are done unto and for them whether they are ready for it or want it.  Strangers come and go performing their "paid job" often acting  impersonally with a cold or distant attitude; a daunting reality of the loss of independence; of "our life."  Maybe the cold distant attitudes may serve at times as the only means of supposed privacy albeit totally sterile and unreal.

    It seems to me this tremendous change from health to sickness, or old age, the understanding that as others are "taking and doing to you" what they are determining is the best for you, and you no longer have any control of most simple movements of a normal existence how deeply this could affect our personalities.  It is a somber reality to think about. The emotional adjustment that has to be made may never fully be possible which no doubt could lead to melancholy, annoyance, and just plain orneriness, and always seems to include confusion.   I am brought to my knees to realize how much more gratitude I ought to be lifting up in my heart moment by moment with every small gesture with ceaseless prayer of thanksgiving; maybe not in actual words, but in my inmost attitude of being.  This may seem selfish. But my yearning heart prayer for these people as I look in their eyes is always active in my heart.  It seems harder for me to remember to pray thanksgiving myself.

   This meditation I believe is a healthy exercise, not an over done introspection, rather for me, it has opened my heart to the wonderful grace given me of freedom of movement, speech, hearing, and touch with whom and when whom I desire it.  I am in my second half of life but still functioning as my own agent in movement.  My heart becomes full with thanksgiving.  I am more aware however, for those others in such dire positions of "having others taking them where they don't ant to go", to them my heart melts with quiet awe and prayer.  How deeply my prayers are for their health to be restored, yet I know God's will for us all is to the perfection of our souls; the old saying the crucible of life is our fire of burning out the dross. May we all be in continual prayer. Amen.

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5th Week of Lent

Here it is Friday the end of the week and no post. Well I didn't really plan on writing.  I am mostly busy in visits and prayer. My people, those I visit, have deep needs and I promise them prayers.  Also many requests from friends and church people.
This keeps me occupied; that and reading. 

Thursday was a holy day in recognition of the Annunciation to Mary, of course, to those of us that know that sort of thing.
I was again moved in my time to think this story over and over and meditate on the actual probable experience.  I have convience myself that Mary no doubt(to me) the good LORD prepared her for meeting an Angel by sending Gabriel to her maybe a couple times earlier than this time when he delivered the Big News!  The Great Holy ONE prepared Moses and Elijah and other people. When the weren't prepared they were knocked out, fallen to the ground as dead the stories tell us. So surely Mary had some early experience with Angels. At least that has been my conclusion from Thursday's meditations.

Nonetheless we move into the beginning of Palm and Passion Sunday. Our institutional churches have molded these two recognition Sundays into one.  Most people celebrate the Palm part and not the Passion which is going to be the focus of the whole week–Holy Week. 

It is my prayer that we all each and everyone of us, take time, a lot of time, to be still, to think, to then not think but to be ready to strip off old baggage of ideas, formulations, hatreds, divisions, and all other sorts of malice or disharmony and allow the Great HOLY SPIRIT of LIFE to move through our hearts to others.  May we recognize the LORD Himself; listen to his words and receive. 

I pray.

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4th Week of Lent – Humility

Humility: When one exercises humility a doorway opens to deeper communion with one's true self which is a process of one's heart becoming pure.  The sixth Beatitude of Jesus is  8Blessed are the pure in heart, for they will see God.  This opens blessing,
"they will see God," opens an immense concept of who God is and who is accessible.

10 I am not worthy of the least of all the mercies and of all the truth which You have shown Your servant;

The word “mercies” is from the Hebrew word 'chesed', meaning God's "Loving-kindness" or “God’s enduring love.”

"Less than the least of all God’s mercies.”   I found on a devotion site that this was the motto 17th-century English poet and clergyman George Herbert engraved on his signet ring, and it was the phrase with which he signed his letters and books.

Jacob (whose name means 'usurper') spoke these words when he pondered God’s goodness despite his own sin and shame:
“I am not worthy of the least of all the mercies and of all the truth which You have shown Your servant” (Gen. 32:10). 
Jacob then relying solely on God’s faithful love, cries out: “Deliver me!..”

Humility and contrition are the keys that open our hearts to the heart of God. 

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I will add a personal note soon; in the meanwhile I wanted to share these wonderful quotes
to aid anyone who may read this blog to open a new perspective on repentance during this
time of self reflective Lent. It is all part of our personal journey to greater righteousness.

Repentance – conversion of the heart – does not mean being filled and tormented
 by guilt. Instead, it means being ready to admit our responsibility for our actions
and our need for forgiveness, and having a firm desire to change our life: to turn
away from ourselves in prayer and in love. Repentance means, above all,
a constant, patient, growing in love. It means our willingness to open ourselves
 to the work of the Spirit in us and to embrace fully the gift of our salvation.
             -Irma Zaleski The Way of Repentance 1999


 1 Corinthians 10:13
               No testing has overtaken you that is not common to everyone.
               God is faithful, and he will not let you be tested beyond your strength,
               but with the testing he will also provide the way out so that you may be
                able to endure it.


Luke 13:1-9

Isaiah 55:1-9
55:1 Ho, everyone who thirsts, come to the waters; and you that have no money, come, buy and eat! Come, buy wine and milk without money and without price.

55:2 Why do you spend your money for that which is not bread, and your labor for that which does not satisfy? Listen carefully to me, and eat what is good, and delight yourselves in rich food.

55:3 Incline your ear, and come to me; listen, so that you may live. I will make with you an everlasting covenant, my steadfast, sure love for David.

55:4 See, I made him a witness to the peoples, a leader and commander for the peoples.

55:5 See, you shall call nations that you do not know, and nations that do not know you shall run to you, because of the LORD your God, the Holy One of Israel, for he has glorified you.

55:6 Seek the LORD while he may be found, call upon him while he is near;

55:7 let the wicked forsake their way, and the unrighteous their thoughts; let them return to the LORD, that he may have mercy on them, and to our God, for he will abundantly pardon.

55:8 For my thoughts are not your thoughts, nor are your ways my ways, says the LORD.

55:9 For as the heavens are higher than the earth, so are my ways higher than your ways and my thoughts than your thoughts.

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